Eat, Pray, Love…

Eat, Pray, Love…

Newsletter:  August 12, 2013

In actual fact, the t-shirt reads…”Eat, PAY, Leave”!

And that IS what we did! Eat, Pay and (finally!) Leave…

And it wasn’t easy leaving! There is a phenomenon that happens when you go to Bali ~ it can pull you in like quick sand ~ and you’re unable to leave the enchanting Bali!

And that is why the poor dear island is in peril today ~ it is being loved to death! But a little bit about that later.

The experience of living in Bali for 5 months is just so far out of my “range” and so much happened in those 5 months, that sitting down to keyboard with you is like locking eyes with an alien ~ how do I explain the world we have been living in and what living in it has done to/with/for us?

I know. Let’s start with Eat, Pray, Leave. There is a mini-bus with Eat, PAY, Leave written on it. You don’t actually SEE what it says for the longest time, because you automatically “see” Eat, Pray, Love – right?

Well, I don’t know if that little book, and the subsequent movie with Julia Roberts, did the same thing for tourism in Italy as it did in Bali, but those who have been here for years ~ and there are many ~ say it has “ruined the place”.

I beg to differ, but I’m new and know nothing of the way it was before “the movie”.

What definitely hasn’t changed about Bali is the “magic” of the island. It is legendary. We heard about it this way ~ “Bali either loves you or spits you out. You either stay there “indefinitely” until you never leave, till its too late to go, OR you are given some kind of sign to ‘Get outa Bali now!’ and you simply find your body on the next possible flight out.

Our experience was that Bali has enveloped us; wrapped us in her arms, rocked and lulled us into forgetting what day it was, what month it was, and seduced us into thinking that perhaps we should live the rest of our lives there!

We had many conversations about how that happens and here are a couple of the top theories…

1) Just like India, this island is Hindu (the rest of Indonesia is predominantly Muslim or Christian) and “ritual” or “aarti” is done not only daily but seemingly hourly ~ it is a VERY big deal there ~ far more so than in India, it seems! But in India there are offerings in front of every door as well, it just seems like Bali’s devotion is so much more…flamboyant, yet that isn’t the best word to describe it either!

It is truly difficult to wrap words around. It is common-place to see women with trays of offerings, waving incense sticks in every corner of every property; whether that is their home or the shop/restaurant or hotel they work at, at any time of the day. In fact, after a while, you just don’t even “see” that anymore! So the “vibe” there is very high! Very Shakti!

And…

2) Bali is not only surrounded by water but it is saturated ~ it rains every day! ~ the humidity is crazy! What’s the point? Well, one Balinese man told us that since everything travels ON water on this planet ~ everything! ~ and because of the dense moisture there, the air of Bali is a conduit for, well, everything! Good, evil, love, hate ~ you name it, and it is flowing through the air there BIG time! ON the air!

And the Balinese always acknowledge the “dark” side…often very creatively, especially in their Ogo-ogos that they create for Nippy, their New Year’s Day (Google that and see what shows up!)…but the upshot of all this is that manifestation time there is radically shortened ~ THINK it and it happens! Seriously. We came to FULLY realize just HOW powerful our thoughts are because of the evidence of it that we saw on Bali ~ it is definitely one unique spot on this planet.

So what hasn’t changed is the magic; really good news. What HAS shifted there? Well, the cost of everything has doubled ~ this is the biggest complaint ~ along with the tourist traffic. This has been the “Hawaii” of Australia ~ often where Aussies have taken their retirement dollars to stretch them out for the remainder of their lives ~ and now the whole WORLD is in on it! AND willing to pay BIG BUCKS to be there ~ shifting economy for not only the Balinese but for the Aussies too! Many a miffed Aussie over this shift!

And every tourist gimmick imaginable is running. But for whatever reason, it just doesn’t seem to have spoiled the ambiance. With no previous knowledge on how it WAS, I am no expert on how it has changed, but it is STILL a magically mystical place to be. Maybe it was far more potent before? Don’t know, but I had never felt LIFE, so vibrantly alive, as I began to while we were living on Bali.

And the good news is that the feeling hasn’t diminished one little bit!

Can I say how much of this is Bali, and how much of this is what happened to/for/with us in India! Nope, cause we went to Bali after the Oneness University/India, and it seems like Life will be forever different than before! Thank You, God! Wahe Guru!

One of the things that IS like India but uniquely Balinese is the TRAFFIC! OH MY GOD, you have never LIVED until you have been THRILLED by a GIANT ~ GIIIIANNNT! ~ tourist BUS flyyyyying along a MAAAAJOR STREET ~ only slightly wider than a Vancouver ALLEY! ~ VERY fast! Hair-RAISING!

And HOW do they find the CONFIDENCE to go at that SPEED?!! When there’s another bus coming from the OPPOSITE direction??! Holy crap! And your VIEW of this is from a seat in a warung (restaurant) that is RIGHT BESIDE the street ~ only sometimes is there a sliver of a sidewalk separating you ~ with uncountable motorcycles zipping around these lumbering giants! It just leaves your mouth dry, eyes wide shut, squinting through slits, every sense ON and FREAKING. And RARELY an accident. People do not drive like that in North America without drugs and they don’t do nearly so well, as we know.

In fact, it is a MUST to drive in an “altered state” in Bali ~ but of a different kind, of course. Because if you drive your motorcycle with your HEAD you are a definite HAZARD. ALL driving is done on an intuitive level ~ total Third-Eye driving ~ cause if you THINK, you crash. They WEAVE along the road ~ it is an energetic dance; metal and flesh as one.

Unlike India, there is not so much animal traffic. Just dogs. And chickens. Chicken jokes must have started in Bali, cause you often wonder “WHY did that chicken cross the road?!!” But in this case, the chicken often changes its mind and crosses back when half way and then panics and thinks better of it and comes back the other way and when a motorcycle finally gets past the chicken there is usually a passenger on the back of the bike looking back at that chicken in comical confusion, wondering WHY and whatever that chicken was doing it was NOT crossing the road!!!

And then there are the dogs. The dog’s life on Bali is hard and heartbreaking to see ~ starving, skinny, scabby-ridden, homeless, “owner”-less”, family-less dogs everywhere. They tell the story of how a few years back they rounded up all the dogs and euthanized them because there were just so many of them and they were forming dangerous packs and chasing the motorcyclists at night, then in broad daylight. Can you imagine?

Dogs doing “it” at the side of the road are as common-place as our recycling bins. So odd to see male dogs with “balls” – Canadian dogs just don’t have that package dangling at the back any more, and you don’t think about it until you SEE it on these dogs and think “Hey, whose livin’? The Bali dog or our version?” But how, and for how long? And that is how RICH life is here – life in your FACE with BIG questions and curious answers to really think about.

But despite all of the fascinating aspects of Life to ponder on Bali, the day finally came when the spell lifted just enough to remember we have friends and community that we dearly love, and we were really missing them. So it was time to give up our seat at the side of the road watching the dogs and the chickens and the wheels going round and round.

And here we are. And almost 3 months of reintegration have flown by! Wow! How did that happen? Did we really leave Bali?!!

But eight months on the road shifts everything and we have been redefining our life here in Vancouver, slowly making our choices on how we want to proceed and re-create our lives.

We started by spending five weeks with dear friends, and we discussed it all ~ pulled it apart and put it back together again ~ what a delight!

Then it was time for a deep cleanse. Hehehe. Picked up a few buggly wugglies on our travels ~ probably had a few when we left if the truth is told ~ and we have finished a 29-day Master Cleanse and are just eating food for 4 days now.

We all scoured our innards too…started with a NAP Parasite Cleanse kit and a daily regime of enemas, salt flushes, colonics, Chi Quong, hot tub, solar appreciation (wow, what a summer!!!) and generally letting it all GO!!!

And felt the freedom from food that is hard-won but comes as you keep with it and gradually nail that reset button!

And yet, armed with knowledge, it does not stop the mind from thinking it would be a good idea to have “a little something sweet” after a meal.

But knowing better and not eating for ages and all that and a rebounder too, STILL doesn’t prepare you for the mind’s little suggestions. We gasped at the audacity of it! How COULD it try to sneak that in so soon? Silly mind. Caught!

And that’s the real work. The mind and all its little games are what we’re actually sussing out! That is the work we did at Oneness and it sure is coming in handy! That is the work done with alcohol and the 12 Steps and that sure is coming in handy! Cause this is simply another stage in a Shift of a LIFETIME we have undertaken and we are not letting all this beautiful preparation go to waste!

And so, we are ready to ROCK! Ready for workshops, talks, sessions. Ready to start that book! Ready to rewrite all the stuff we’ve learned more about where the old manual leaves off, as far as we’re concerned. Ready to do all this and more – in fact, we even have a place to live now! We have rented the Master Bedroom Suite in a huge house in Shaunnessy in a community home that we are SUPER PUMPED about joining minds and communities with….

….as soon as we get back from Europe.

Just one more piece and we’re done. And it is perfect, of course. Missing my only child since she left for France; she told me less than two weeks ago that she has the last week of August off and could I come to visit?

So who would have thought that I’d get not one but TWO seats to Europe in August using air miles? So taking what was available, we are heading to London August 18th to visit my brother and nephew, then going to Paris August 25th to see Sadie, returning to London September 2 to visit with Paul’s family and to spread his mother and father’s ashes where they requested – over the river they walked along when they were courting all those years ago, before moving to Canada.

And of course, it is SO perfect. This completes our journey in every way and we return home fully prepared to be here in every way for ourselves and for our community. How does it get any better than that?!

So that’s our story. That’s what we’ve been doing for one of the most amazing years of our lives.

And it feels truly magical ~ there is definitely a vibration in the air, a resonance of reverence for the perfection of Life.

And yes, we are going to facilitate Oneness Awakenings and Quantum Touch Level I & II as well as Quantum Touch’s newest workshop ~ Self-Created Health.

And yes, we are going to bring back the Cacao Journey!

And yes, we are going to start cleansing support groups ~ it truly is the secret code to success!!

And yes, we believe 2014 will see the return of the Living Vision retreat that started so much in this community.

So please, let us know what you have been doing while we have been away and let us know how we can be of service in your life and community.

May You Be Blessed Beyond Your Wildest Imaginings!

Namaste,
Love Kathie…and Paul!

The Pressure of Time

The Pressure of Time

Newsletter:  October 19, 2016

Around we go…ChristMass just around the corner… so fast! Yet, not even Hallows Eve! The wheels go round and round and round, just a teeny bit quicker, it seems, every year…

How are you feeeling?

What we’re seeing in ourselves, and those around us, is rapid transit!

Who stepped on the gas?! Time is flying by! Who ordered all the personal work? Rapid transit indeed!

Yet it IS most welcome, and considering the wildly ridiculous, and at times impossibly tragic, upheaval all around, there’s a new scent, a fresh breeze with something brand spankin’ on it and there’s a trust too, that hasn’t been felt in a very long time. Not easy to put a finger on, but definitely a happening.

We continue to weave our way through A Course In Miracles ~ every day another staggeringly beautiful ode to our souls. Laying out a plan for us, so we can see with new eyes, shift our perception; a miracle!

Yes, to change does seem like a miracle sometimes. And then, when the moment is ripened to absolute perfection, change is simple bliss. How’s that?!

As we go into the Christmas season, something to bring peace to heart and soul…

ACIM Lesson 286 – “The hush of Heaven holds my heart today.” “My heart is quiet and my mind at rest.”

In Sarah’s Reflections from www.JCIM.net’s online newsletter, it is proposed that peace eludes us because of our investment in time, as outlined below by David Hawkins in Eye of the I:

“Once the pressure of time ceases, it is recognized to have been perhaps one of the primary sources of distress that accompanies the human condition.

The sense of time creates stress, pressure, anxiety, fear and endless disgruntlement in a myriad of ways.

The ‘time stress’ accompanies all activities and pursuits, creating the illusion of sequence and cause.

Every human action is couched in an unspoken pressure cooker of time and the mind constantly calculates how much ‘time’ can be ‘spent’ at every activity.

This results in panic, fear or worry as well as guilt, shame and anger. ‘Too much time spent on this. Not enough time spent on that.

There are many things we would like to do but we don’t have enough time. Time will run out.’

Until the sensation of time stops, one does not have any possibility of knowing what real freedom or peace feels like.”

So as the season to be jolly rapidly approaches, we have made a promise to ourselves to “take time” and to “spend our time wisely” ~ with each other, as kindly as we can be, in every moment. As Heaven is only IN each and every moment, none other.
Love and Blessings,
Kathie

The Blessing of Breathwork

The Blessing of Breathwork

Newsletter: February 1, 2017

Well, one of the certainties of life is change. It’s pure bliss when a change occurs that shifts our life towards the “better” and gives a reprieve from thinking. Even one moment ~ its enough to know that its how we are meant to be. Always.

A dear member of our Quantum Family Circle has released her beloved spouse back to his Creator and we know it felt too early for that journey, but we just don’t know what the whole plan is, sometimes, and we’ll see how that sits. For now, the change feels raw and rough. Our hearts ache.

No matter how prepared we are for a change, it just never seems to fully land…the impact…until it actually occurs, and we realize that nothing could ever prepare us for certain moments…no matter from how far back we see it coming.

And we are swimming in a sea of uncertainty now, as a collective family…we just have no idea what is going to happen next, right? Never have, really. But the illusion that we have has always been preserved and that is not UP any more…that illusion is DOWN and the illusion we currently have running full blast is that we do not know, and that is all we really know, and change on every level is certain!

So how do we cope with that? How do we evolve? Thrive, not just survive? Our nervous systems are not equipped to deal with this level of stress.

I will share my way of living in this world now. I feel the need to share today because for a few moments I stepped back into a very fearful place ~a place I used to LIVE in~ for a few moments today, and the CONTRAST was breath-TAKING!

For me, it was the straw that broke the camel’s back… terrible saying, but it clearly wasn’t the last straw that broke the camel’s back, but the accumulation of all the stress preceding that last straw. Anyway, the straw landed.

Did I hear the straw land? No. All I knew was that I was in a confined space unable to breathe. Not literally, of course. Just trapped by my own thoughts – held in a place that is small and airless and optionless.

How much had actually changed? Nothing significant had happened. Only my thoughts, and the thoughts they thought up, were creating this sensation that I was deeming a REAL thing that could hurt me.

It was clear that nothing had happened, yet I had changed the landscape of my whole life – I had darkened my entire world, dimmed my sun, stifled growth in every direction – with my thoughts alone. Sure that the evidence would show up in my outer reality soon, I started imagining the way it could go – I call it “internal catastrophizing” – and then all the “work” I had done created a new thought…one that didn’t fit into the catastrophe….and that was that…

“This is the time to ground myself with my breath.”

It was so simple – to get back to thriving ~ on air!

With my breath, I could find some space to ask myself if what I feared was a CERTAINTY. And if not, could I entertain a movie, of a situation, in which the most AMAZING LOVE is felt and the best way anything could go was the way it DOES go! And that I choose THAT as my default program, not the catastrophe?

A Course in Miracles says “Choose again” ~ that to “sin” is simply an archer’s term meaning to “miss the mark” and that we don’t abandon hope when we miss the mark, we just take aim, again; we choose again. With the help of a calming breath, we access a new perception – a change of perception IS a miracle – and rewrite the movie of the mind. And in THIS movie, thrive! BE able. You ARE given permission. YOU are en-COUR-aged. You are applauded. You are loved. You are free to love.

That’s the way I’ve changed my world. Still a work in progress. Especially some days when it seems the fear-o-metre has been cranked UP. BUT, I’ve never gone back forever. Never gone back, so deep, as from where I came. And the beauty is, I’ve never forgotten the way out!

In 2016, we rode the 365 Lessons of ACIM and this year we feel a keen integration of that reprogramming of the mind.

Please read David Hawkins Eye of the I excerpt closely, and notice that if you breathe mindfully through the reading, that you can start to unravel the tension in your heart…

“Once the pressure of time ceases, it is recognized to have been perhaps one of the primary sources of distress that accompanies the human condition.

The sense of time creates stress, pressure, anxiety, fear and endless disgruntlement in a myriad of ways.

The ‘time stress’ accompanies all activities and pursuits, creating the illusion of sequence and cause.

Every human action is couched in an unspoken pressure cooker of time and the mind constantly calculates how much ‘time’ can be ‘spent’ at every activity.

This results in panic, fear or worry as well as guilt, shame and anger. ‘Too much time spent on this. Not enough time spent on that.

There are many things we would like to do but we don’t have enough time. Time will run out.’

Until the sensation of time stops, one does not have any possibility of knowing what real freedom or peace feels like.”

And so watch time with your breath. GIVE your SELF time.

When your final exhalation comes, gift this, your essence, back to the world. We came with nothing, not even the breath, and we leave that behind, along with the gift of our life ~ our thoughts ~ and how they formed a world; created a life, to share.

And so the changes come and go. We love and we let go. We give and we let go. We live and we let go.

Love & Blessings,
Kathie

Integrating “Breatharianism”

Integrating “Breatharianism”

Newsletter:  December 13. 2018

Well, it has been quite a year-end! Wow.

Many have asked how we’re doing after the “Breatharian” Pranic Living Retreat in Ecuador. Well, we’re still drinking liquids only, to bring our bodies to a “reset” point after the 4-Day Dry Fast. And still assimilating everything that happened on this adventure.

But isn’t it always the way, that after you buy/do/want something, and you buy/get/have that something, that you suddenly start noticing that thing/it everywhere?!

That happened around the Pranic Living Retreat!!! And specifically, FASTING!

What we have come to understand is that we were taken on a MAJOR physical reset.

And that this is happening all over the planet.

People are DIVING into redefining their relationship WITH their body – juicing, intermittent fasting, mindset and meditation – all are being woven for tailor-made experiences. We just happened to notice THIS one because we were tweaked by “Breatharian” rather than any other marketing pitch – we were not attracted to just following a Fasting Lifestyle. Then.

BUT, not many of the many programs that I NOW see EVERYWHERE do the DRY Fast. That takes guts for a Facilitator AND a Participant to say “Yes!” to, and I give it to Ray Maor for carving this unique niche in the market of restructuring the relationship of the mind and heart to the body.

And it is a market and there is a lot of marketing. There were some moments of dismay as that sunk in for me, as I stepped out of the Health Coaching business after going through the Institute for Integrative Nutrition’s program in 2011 because of the endless marketing involved… but Paul, being Paul, took the whole thing in stride and got exactly what he wanted out of it! LOL! He’s what I call an “Adaptarian”!

So as I asked my own question “What is a Breatharian?” throughout the Pranic Living retreat, I came to understand it is simply a Spiritual Commitment to your Physical Being.

It is a return to Fasting as a way of Life that takes away the stress on the body from the rampant over-eating that is considered “normal” on our planet.

And we were SO grateful to do this with a group of like-mindeds. There is a tribal unity in a group like this that is tangible – so many different reasons for being there, but all of us with the deep, common DESIRE for a new way of living. Ready to redefine what eating is to us.

You could FEEL the longing for newness on the physical plane. For change. And the fear of change. And the fear the change WON’T happen!

The group helps, the facilitation helps, but ultimately, you’re on your own. When you tongue feels 2 miles wide and 3 miles long and you have another 36 hours to go without a drop of water, there really is no one and nothing that can speak to you where you are. It’s just you and you. It is a confrontation of deep patterns. Ugh. Yay. Here we go again…

And why not? What else is there to do here, right?! Why not look at EVERY relationship with every THING and redefine it if it isn’t serving? Bottom line was, we were miserable in our relationship with food. We didn’t know WHAT to eat any more! After many cleanses, quests and fads, we were simply so confused by food and what and when and how to eat it that NOT eating seemed the only option left and we went to see how we could do that.

Did we find out? No. Ultimately, a transition to never eating is a process that is going to take much longer than a 10-day retreat. Did we get clarity and direction? Yes. We went through a 4-Day Dry Fast in an awesome location with some sweet humans from all over the world and it was wonderful! And now the real deal is integrating this into our lives.

How does that go? Well, we’ve been advised by Ray to drink only liquids for 6-12 weeks to cement this process into our body. Do I think that’s necessary? No. We will do the 6 weeks and celebrate with food with our family this Christmas.

We have been told to do one day Dry Fasting a week. Are we doing that? Yes! AND WE LOVE IT!!! And so does the body!

Also, every day, intermittent fasting – this means you put nothing in your mouth until mid-day – which adds up to about 14-18 hours without food, depending on your sleep habits. Are we doing that? Yes, but not every day.

And EVERY day where solid food is consumed is followed by a Dry Fast day – will we do that? Absolutely! Not going backwards on this! LOVE IT TOO MUCH!

What we have come to realize is that we have been gifted a beautiful introduction to one of the most beneficial processes humans can go through with their body – FASTING. Will we continue to fast? Yup! Fasting is amazing!

What did the retreat look like? Simple, but not easy…

We started with a day of fruit – fresh fruit from the trees of Vilcabamba, Ecuador!

Then we juiced the fruit for a day – tragic, to watch all that pulp get eaten by the donkeys!

Then a day of water – not as hard as it sounds, didn’t even drink that much water that day!

Then the 4-Day Dry Fast. By the end of the first day, you’re ready for this to be over!

By the time we got our first glass of water in the “Water Ceremony” – purified, structured and Blessed by the whole group! – we had never been so grateful for a glass of water, EVER!

And for now, we are simply drinking…although today is our weekly Dry Fast day and every once in a while, as the mouth gets dryer and dryer, I think a glass of water would be nice…

Would we do it that way again? In a heartbeat!

Something to think about as we load the plate up at Christmas… we actually doubt we’ll be able to eat much, but its the camaraderie….and that, Dear Friend, is what “Breatharians” say is the most challenging thing of all!

Merry Christmas to you and your Loved Ones – and if Merry Christmas is not your salutation, please consider our Love Sent in whatever way you feel most comfortable hearing that!

May 2019 be the VERY BEST YEAR EVER!
Love & Blessings from us Both,
Breathe Deeply, Dear Friend
Kathie & Paul

The Universe Always Supports You

The Universe Always Supports You

Just the other day

The other day, all the fear and anxiety collected and came out apparently unprovoked…hehehe. And when you sling one of those fire balls you KNOW it immediately!  Bam! It’s gone off like a bomb right in front of you and there you are again – faced with that decision…to fess up or cover up. Well, once the “fess up” is fully ON in daily life it’s like peripheral vision has opened up! The things you see about yourself and how you take care of your construction of your “reality” is suddenly SEEN – by YOU! This really came home the other day as I saw a pattern yet again and felt so much SHAME that I couldn’t help but wonder how people who have done something spectacularly, obviously out of line must feel and I couldn’t help but marvel at the human spirit’s capacity to contain this thing – shame – and how someone manages to COPE with huge gobs of it at once and still seem SANE.  My God.

It’s a brave world we live in today

It’s a brave world we live in today.  We navigate our lives with all the dignity and grace we can allow…keeping a steady course with our eye on expressing our gifts and our truth…we’re all in this now…growing through the rawness of brand spankin’ new awarenesses and Awakening to the fullness of this Existence through Service to Love. To serve Love through our own uniqueness with a vision of true Oneness within, and all around, should be simple, but it isn’t always.  Do our words en-COURAGE?  Do we find JOY in our service to others?  What creates that inner contraction that pulls us back from Love?  What wound are we protecting so fiercely we cannot allow another to “touch” it, let alone look at it ourselves? Yet manifestations of our wound keep coming at us like zombies in an end-of-the-world horror movie.  Opportunities to shift our perception walking towards us endlessly – responding to that vibration we are emanating that only we can’t seem to notice – but its pulling towards us what we seem to not want and repelling what we say we do!  How’s that happening?!!

A gob of frustration…

Well, all of this can add up to a gob of frustration at not creating a life we enjoy and that dang proverbial straw that broke the poor camel’s back is here again… The other day, all the fear and anxiety collected and came out apparently unprovoked…hehehe. And when you sling one of those fire balls you KNOW it immediately!  Bam! It’s gone off like a bomb right in front of you and there you are again – faced with that decision…to fess up or cover up. Well, once the “fess up” is fully ON in daily life it’s like peripheral vision has opened up! The things you see about yourself and how you take care of your construction of your “reality” is suddenly SEEN – by YOU! This really came home the other day as I saw a pattern yet again and felt so much SHAME that I couldn’t help but wonder how people who have done something spectacularly, obviously out of line must feel and I couldn’t help but marvel at the human spirit’s capacity to contain this thing – shame – and how someone manages to COPE with huge gobs of it at once and still seem SANE.  My God. It’s a very, very intense time right now on our Earth – and I thought it was intense a few years ago! – but this is a white-hot fire…burning away… burning away all that I/we/us must have singed from the soul.  Purified with this intensity. Be as brave as required to claim your gift of ever-deepening love; surrender to the growing kindness and compassion we are increasingly holding for each other. That has been the most amazing sweetness – the softening growth of true compassion for self and others and the VASTNESS of this epic journey. And sometimes, when we are not met with kindness or compassion, from ourselves or another, it can be taken as a sure sign that you’re READY for the “opportunity” to see a new layer of “stuff” and not only are you unable to protect yourself from this new fire but in a wildly hysterical kinda way you’re READY because you KNOW that EVERYTHING has conspired to open your heart to yourself – a new expansion of your heart! When we’re incapable of protecting (shutting down) our heart it could also be that life has been orchestrated in such a way by the Universe that we may feel stuck right where we are and know we’ll stay right there until our heart breaks open. An interesting thing happened for me as we decided to start the 365 Daily Lessons of A Course in Miracles on December 1st instead of January 1st – just couldn’t wait another month – and the day after ALL these juicy nuances to the many lessons of living life came crashing into my heart the lesson of the day was Lesson 13’s “A meaningless world engenders fear.” and at the end of the Lesson it adds “because I think I am in competition with God.”

And here i was, thinking…

And here I was, thinking that it is just all of us humans orchestrated to endlessly compete with each other! Now, the night before, in our Quantum Life weekly circle, SO much came through in the group’s sharing and SO much was pulled together through the experiences shared by others, that it was truly ILLUMINATING – to share all this and then to see….to see that when I feel shame is when I feel like I am SO vulnerable because there is an unseen and unknown FORCE about to punish me and I am squirming.  I am SOO sorry.  I know I am caught and I am afraid of the punishment.  We all think we don’t have this program running because it is SO DEEP in there!  Wow! And to understand, that thinking I compete with “God” is the source of the shame, can start the unraveling. And then the realization that the source of the intense fear and anxiety (and how it convinces me that I will die of this) is my shameful state and that my untrained mind – actually, my well-trained but direly misdirected mind! – simply needs to FORGIVE ITSELF for “humaning” is the quiet “walk-away” that I’ve been waiting for!  MUCH to my surprise. Shame creates and generates the internal catastrophizing.  So, what do we do about it?  Surrender to it.  Wallow in it. Roll around in it.  Cover yourself in it.  So you can see its False Evidence Appearing Real – just FEAR again. And then pretend you KNOW.  Fake it till you make it.  Pretend you KNOW that you are Loved beyond measure and you compete with no one.  In a world built on competition, it is brave indeed to let go and let yourself FEEL all the HOPE you need to!  All the TRUST you can!  All the LOVE that’s yours!

i LOVE how the Universe brings me everything I Need!

I LOVE how the Universe brings me everything I need! Right on time! Cause I found myself in a waiting room…reading Vanity Fair, a magazine I would never buy now…reading about the antics of young Margaret Trudeau in the 1970’s and 80’s, struggling with bipolar disorder, splashed across the pages of every international tabloid, and the shame she had to overcome to feel worthy enough to pull her life together after tragedies both related and unrelated to her dis-ease, and there it was – my answer to wondering what do people DO when they have done something spectacularly, obviously out of line and HOW do they COPE with the shame heaped on them…how does the human spirit contain this unnatural thing – shame – and manage to COPE with HUGE gobs of it at once and still seem SANE.   Or not seem sane, but remain alive. Well, apparently, Margaret has a big HEART.  HUGE. And has “re-invented” herself as a serious person with a serious message after spending the best years of her life making the worst possible decisions, played out for the world to see and ridicule. “And has managed to pull (this) off, armed with perspective and grit and humour and the UNYIELDING belief that, somehow, tomorrow has the potential to be better than today!” Vanity Fair Well, thank you, Margaret Trudeau.  Who knew?  Asked by her son Justin, when he became a father, what the secret to being a great parent was, she replied “Love. Before and above all else, be filled with love for your children, no matter what the circumstances”  And despite her behaviour and the world’s opinion of it, he said “But long before she told me that, she showed me that, all through my life.” Give yourself a break in the shame game – see where the opinions of others is creating your internal struggle. Trust that tomorrow has the potential to be better than today.  Love every child like they’re your own – or at least consider that option, to some degree.  And let go of the guilt of thinking you should know how to do all this right now…and open your heart to the Amazing Intelligence of Life Force Energy – Universal Love, in All Its Glory. May your heart expand and may LOVE & Blessings GALORE seep into you through every break in your heart. And Merry ChristMass. May the Light of Love shine on you and all whom you love! Namaste, Kathie & Paul

Kathie Scott

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